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Hey readers!

I looked back on blogs I've (thankfully) saved from my old Myspace page and found this... more like a Myspace blog I re-blogged on Facebook and that's how I saved it. I gotta warn you, I've always jumped from one topic to the next, but in my mind, it was all connected.. and by looking at the dates written, yes I'm aging myself, but whatever- 30 is the new 21. Enjoy!

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31 Oct 2007

WOW- AT 21, WHO KNEW?

I was reading all of my old blogs, and have bumped into this one that hit home that I had written when I was 21:

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"17 Dec 2005

IT AIN'T OVER 'TIL IT'S OVER... Current mood: contemplative

I just typed out something, worked super hard on it, tried to preview it, then it just randomly erased itself? Could I have saved it? Don't think so... I have to start ALL over again on a clean slate. Would I have used the same material? I wish I could. I am just too lazy to try to get it back right now- sound familiar?

I bet it reminds you of things in your everyday life. You make the wrong moves, thinking they're the right ones, then regret it after. Knowing this, you still keep making the same moves rather than learn

from the last time it has happened and end up in the same mess. Kinda like going to the dentist with a cavity, getting it filled, then eating a shitload of candy afterwards, just making a new cavity, rather than taking care of that tooth, to make sure it stays strong.

That's the kind of shit that will eventually build up and take it's toll, turning you into a insomniac, not being able to eat, just drink away those thoughts, pass out and wake up with a massive hangover.

To avoid this, think hard before you make a move- like in chess. Life is like a game of chess- make the wrong moves and you're fucked. Learn from the mistakes you have made in the previous games so that eventually you will win... yeah I know I'm ranting about randomness.. oh well... signing off- toodaloo!!"

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I am impressed on how clear I was thinking back then, even making mistakes after that. We're only human, right?

Just reading this blog, it's proof that you shouldn't just blow someone's opinion off because of their lack of experience in life compared to you.

I read another blog that I wrote entirely about Pogs, koosh balls, and my other favorites of the 1990s. It reminded me of how simple life was, back when I was 9 or 10 years old. When I had a problem, I would distract myself with all the cool stuff in front of me, and focus solely on having fun at that moment.

What do we do as adults?

I just like this picture. Deal with it.

We sulk, eat a tub of cookie dough ice cream, while watching re-runs of The OC.

The better way to deal with problems is to evaluate them at a time when you're calm and collected. Making decisions while you're angry could lead to regret in the end.

Being productive is a better way of distracting yourself from problems. If you work, make sure you're there 15 minutes early, and that you do the job right. If you go to school, same thing. Homework? Make realistic deadlines for each hour to break down your assignments, include a break for dinner, so you can submit it on time, without lacking too much sleep.

Have allergies? Vacuum your house, do laundry, throw out trash, recycle, get rid of dust. Feng Shui your space; Clutter, especially stuffed animals, can attract and house more allergins than you can be comfortable knowingly living with.

To-do lists are a big help as well. Before you go to bed at night, try to plan the next day, from waking up until you go to bed. This is especially good if you have problems going to sleep at night because you always think too much about what you have to do the next day.

Problems are just a part of life; it's how we DEAL with them is what's important. It is vital for our sanity, especially since adulthood is already complex enough without the bullshit.

Anyways, if you're ever feeling down, you're entitled to have a bad hour. Just know where to draw the line and get on with the rest of your day... and always go to bed with a clear mind!

THE END.

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... and that was how I thought back then...

@JerZGrlinCanada

Hey readers!

I always thought October was Bullying Prevention month, like how it was last year, but now I'm hearing it's Domestic Violence Awareness month?? I thought that was next month? Oh well, here at Jamsterdam Radio, we'll stick to October being Bullying Prevention month, just to keep things consistent.

Anyway, I've been thinking a lot about the stories I've heard about bullies, and have even reflected on my own experiences: being bullied by other females when I was in high school, as well as putting up with stupid exes who have treated me badly to the point of mental/emotional/sexual abuse (when I was 20), as well as put up with exes friends who have treated me like absolute shit after the breakups, I've realized that the biggest bullies could be even closer than we'd think- not just friends, or even family... at times, life gets so hard, that we start to bully ourselves. We are in fact, our own worst critics.

When you make a mistake, do you ever call yourself "stupid"? When you look in the mirror, do you find yourself nitpicking at all your physical "flaws"? When you survive traumatic events, do you automatically blame yourself for being at the wrong place at the wrong time? Do you compare yourself to others and envy what they have, as opposed to being grateful of the great things you have in your life? Do you find yourself constantly living in the past, having too much hope for the future, as opposed to ever being present in the moment in front of you?

If you answered "Yes" to any of the above questions, it's time to make some changes- it's time to treat yourself better. No one is perfect. Even those who seem to have it all have something they wish deep down that they had. Even if you don't see why, someone out there would kill to have a quality that you have.

Even if you think you're not beautiful or smart, you can bet your bottom dollar that someone you've come

across thinks you're absolutely incredible in your own unique way. Being unique is a very good thing- makes you stand out in a crowd of clones. Try looking at yourself in the mirror like you usually do, and rather than rip your looks apart, try focusing on the things you do like about yourself- you know you like at least one thing about yourself- everyone has something they're proud of, whether internal or external. Embrace what you love.

You blame yourself for traumatic events in your life? Please stop doing that to yourself. Beating yourself up will not change the past, nor will it make things easier- it could actually make things worse for you.

In terms of living in the past or future, you're allowing precious moments in the present time pass you by. Embrace these moments- make new memories. Experience life. I think of all the parents out there who have lost their children due to illness, accidents, or even stillbirth or miscarriages, and these precious lives never got to see half of the things you get to see because they weren't with us long enough to do so. Be grateful for your life and live for great experiences, as opposed to trying to "kill time" all the time. We tend to take life for granted, and it has to stop.

Why can't you be kinder to yourself? Are your thoughts highly influenced by others? Is it all in your head? Did past experiences scar you for life to the point where you believe you're only worth being talked down to?

Life is too goddamned short to beat yourself up, or eat up other people's negative energy they try to throw your way. Just play dodge ball with that kind of energy. The people that surround you want to be negative and drag you down? Get new friends that will uplift you. Why can't we celebrate other people's accomplishments, as opposed to want to take them down? Naturally, many humans (well, I noticed this particular force is strong in the Toronto area) don't want anyone doing better than them- so the hater nation just keeps expanding. Know you're better than this kind of bullshit attitude. If others want to possess this negative energy, then that's their prerogative.

Anyway, I just felt like writing this message to whoever reads this because I find we need to learn to be kinder to ourselves. If, as individuals we do that, this world would be a far better place.

@JerZGrlinCanada

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